Comments:

cat - 2004-07-01 02:02:37
I think if you asked yourself: Do I wish Jasmine had never been born? You'd find yourself saying no. It's all right to feel what you feel: the guilt, the joy, the sorrow...it's all okay to feel. They are YOU'RE emotions. Screw whether other people think you're grieving "enough" or too much. No one on earth can dictate what is right for you. You feel your emotions, whatever they may be.
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LA - 2004-07-01 06:40:39
Oh my goodness! What a terrible case of NORMAL you have! Sorry, dear. I am not making light of you or feelings, but what you're dealing with and how you are feeling isn't shocking. You are not disloyal or unloving or cold. I felt what you're feeling (in a much smaller and less desperate way) when Alex went away to school. How could I move to a new house? How could I be happy to have only one kid and not two to deal with? How dare I make new routines and traditions without my boy? Was I a monster? And anyone who hears you laugh and thinks you're not 'grieving' correctly is a jerk. All of you had to give so much of yourselves, I'm proud of you for trying to figure out what comes next. You are facing life after Jasmine with the same strength and grace you had when she was here. Hugs, ~LA
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Becky - 2004-07-01 08:31:14
I understand what you are talking about, I think there is an entry along these same lines on the first year of J's death. I remember feeling guilty about eating because he couldnt eat any of the things he liked, then I felt guilty about feeling good abut the fact that I had lost weight because I didnt eat. I didnt have a way of living my life without feeling guilty about one thing or the other. I cant compare my loss to yours, I could never imagine the pain of losing your child, but I do know what it feels like to feel guilty, I had the great advice of wifemotherme here in DL. I hope in some way, you can see by this that although difficult, it is normal what you are feeling.
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Robbin - 2004-07-01 18:23:48
I cannot say that I can share in your feelings. It is one loss that I hope that I never experience. However, if by some will, I do. I can only hope to be as strong and level headed as you have been. And don't try to tell me it is a facade. I know better. It takes great strength to be in touch with your emotions and to know it is okay to go on and grieve as you see fit. I have always admired your strength. Don't let anyone waiver, especially you. Sending you hugs anyways.
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Mom - 2004-07-01 22:16:42
Listen to the above comments, You or Jeff should ever second guess what choices you made. You always had Jasmine's best interest at heart. And don't ever let anyone say anything else. Cause they're full of shit!!!! I love you all, and can't wait for you all to get back here. Mom and Dad
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Heather - 2004-07-02 02:27:00
Go Mom!
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