Dragonflies, Butterflies & Lady Bugs

Sweet & Sour

I'm not sure how it's possible for my life to be so hopeful and so full of uncertainty at the same time. I am in love with my belly dancing classes -- I love them both, for differing reasons. Caberet is fun 'cause it has all the intricate choreography and flashy-shimmy-bump and tribal is great for the sisterhood and the improvisation (which is a challenge to my confidence). My body is sore in some interesting places that I don't think you could reach with "normal" exercising and the scale is continuing its slow-but-sure downward trend.

I've been doing very well with my eating, and in fact had to revamp last week to make sure I was getting enough calories. Now that I've edged my eating back up a bit, I'm paradoxically losing more weight. Okay, I know it's not really a paradox -- body going into famine mode, yadda yadda -- but it sure feels like one. Anyway, my diet is a million times better as I've been eating more at home and making healthier choices.

Gym time is also getting more rewarding as I'm seeing increases in both strength and stamina. The elliptical machine is no longer the scary thing it once was, and in fact, I really like it. I've always liked lifting weights, so that's all good too.

So body things, good.

My coven is doing well too -- we had some really great people show interest in study circle, which is the first step to potential membership. In fact, we had more than I thought we would, and I've been pleasantly surprised. We're shooting to start the first week in March and I'm really looking forward to it.

Coven, also good.

Other things, things involving employment, are much slower and fraught with depression and tension. Finding employment for Jeff and I should be easy, but it's painstaking. And of course, the anniversary of Jasmine's passing, which hit me a little harder than I expected. The extremes between the lows and the highs are, well, extreme. I'm hoping for some balance, for a little break from the roller coaster. Maybe that's simply the richness of life -- with the highs, the lows. With the sweet, to quote Aunt Jet, the sour. The trick is keeping that perspective.

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