Clarity - 2005-01-19 12:47:49
I'm so sorry for all you're going through and all you've been through. We all have days when everything just crushes down on us and seems overwhelming, hopeless and just repetitive. When everything is gray and..oh yeah, this is really cheering you up. Let me switch tracks. I know I don't have the right words to make everything better, but imagine me sending positive thoughts in your direction:). I hope your day improves. *Hug* - well, a virtual hug. -Clarity
Willow - 2005-01-19 12:48:29
There must be something in the air, because I am so with you right now. Not that my experience is the same - but I feel like I'm finally seeing Andrew without the rose-colored glasses of love and denial on and not like what I see... finally accepting that he may never become more than what he is... and that he probably doesn't even want to.
Ro - 2005-01-19 13:00:24
Mo, Willow...I am so with you about the fighting for marriage thing. Justin will probably never be anything more than he is, and I don't think I can be satisfied with that any more. And no, Justin doesn't want to be anything more, at least from what he has admitted to me. Getting back to the real reason for this comment...I wish I could be there to hold your hand, Mo. Do you need me? I will come, just say the word.
LR - 2005-01-19 13:08:44
I have maybe only said this once in my won't know the immense power of it: Ask for my Gramma Boone's help. She's dead. She was a Healer and she's more powerful than any person I'll ever know, let alone I've ever heard of. She will do what she can for you and as someone who had 13 children survive (yes, that means she lost more), she *does* know. Again, if nothing else, ask "Gramma Boone." That's the greatest prayer I've been taught.
Tracy - 2005-01-19 13:12:19
M, I am so sorry you are hurting right now. There aren't enough words to erase your hurt, but I will keep you in my thoughts and prayers, as always. Don't know if this helps any, but anytime I see a dragonfly anywhere, I always think of Jasmine and send up a prayer for her.
Jess - 2005-01-19 14:18:55
I know I don't have any words that will make the darkness brighter...but know that I'm sending love and light your way, and praying that the clouds of hurt in your soul will clear soon.
Beth - 2005-01-19 14:26:36
I don't have the words either, but I am sending all the positive energy I can muster in your direction. You are in my thoughts.
Becky - 2005-01-19 15:52:52
I am so sorry you are going through all of this, you are entitled to feel down, you have always been so strong, days like these are bound to happen, in my experience all the firsts are the most difficult experiences, first birthdays, christmas, etc, etc. I just want you to know that if you ever need someone to listen, I am here.
cat - 2005-01-19 15:53:57
I am so sorry Monica. I wish with all my heart there was some way to make things better for you, but I know there isn't. Like everyone else who's left a note, I care very much about you and am keeping you, Jeff, Nina, Gabrielle and Jasmine in my heart right now. *Hugs*
ophelia - 2005-01-19 16:33:56
Thank you so much for writing. Many times you articulate beautifully what I too am feeling however am loathe to or unable to say. I am sending you enormous hugs to safe and use whenever you need. I often wonder, do they miss us as much s we miss them. with love, ophelia
Square1 - 2005-01-19 17:11:45
All I know to do is send a warm hug your way. Motherhood and marriage is more difficult than most can imagine. It's wearying fighting the same fights every day, cleaning up the same messes, and feeling another day slip away that you felt you could have been doing something more. Whatever you believe, always believe that there is purpose to what you're doing... because there is. It's not easy for us to see, in much the same way a single brick, bearing the burden of a thousand others doesn't know that it is holding up a glorious structure. Keep shining, don't give up, and take some time for you... you need a chance to give your soul some rest.
Mollydog - 2005-01-19 19:53:03

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